motherhood , marriage, nd money .

[ cntdwn : 19 days ]

a child is a blessing, and a gift from God. if your 30 or 15, the child is no less of a blessing in the eyes of God. the only difference is its most likely harder for the mother, but with sex comes responsibility and everytime you engage in intercourse, there is a risk of reproduction. NONETHELESS , abortion is wrong. if you think your old enough to have sex, best believe you need to reep the consequences of your actions. which brings me to a follow top 6er. stephanie reutlinger, i respect her decision to keep the child and even look up to her in a way. abortions is the easy way out, and she chose to do the right thing, which in this case, is the hard way out. i love her, and because of that, i feel it is my responsibility to help make this experience as easy as possible for her. i see her with kids, and i already shes going to be a great mom. and because theres nothing crying, or regret can do now, there is nothing left to do but be exciteeeedd !! wooot woot . lord knows i am. i absolutely cannot wait to be an auntyyy !!

so basicaaally , the past two months have been a hectic time for my family. and not in tha way you might think. nope, me and my broo have nothing to do with it. ahah in fact, its because of one of my cousins who absolutely can do no wrong.. until this. bahahah . so he wants to get married, he's 24 .. been seeing this girl for a year, prayed about it, she's a devoted christian ? what possible reason can my aunt have for nearly packing up her bags and moving to ethiopia because she refuses to witness it. she even missed thanksgiving dinner and steady cried for two months. why the drama, you might be asking yourself. ohh , well .. he's pretty much marrying the devil. and her families even worse. goood thing i just find out last night, because if i would have known that he was planning on bringing the only family in our church that i actually detest, i woulda stirred some serious shit. not only would i have slapped some sense into that foolish man, but i woulda told that bitch, feven.. if she thinks she coming into this family, she would have to kill me first. literally. shooot me in the head. not only do i dislike her. but her family, can pretty much rott for all i care. especially that fucking sister of hers. dumb bitch. i hate that cunt. personally i thought, she was pregnant. he musta knocked her up to be talkin such garbage, saying he loved her. or voodoo. shes must be involved in witchcraft. anywhooooo . thank god thats over and that i found all this out when it was over. lord, you truley know me tooo well .

money, money, money, moooonay.. MOOONAY . so im still working. and reannas still quitting. which means im still sad. ahah buuut, nonetheless, this is the first christmas i've had a job. lol . wow. deadbeat. so its the fifth, and our christmas tree isnt up, and i havent gotten any presents yet. lord knows im working on it. fucking ebay. i work today 5:00 - 8:30 and hopefully i can put my tree up then. i wonder if ill actually end up going out tonight. hifi might be bumping, and also mybar. hmm, i kinda just wanna smoke a spliff and see a movie but nobodys chill like me. its always about goin to tha club. but i aint gon complain, i looove my alcohol. ♥ also, going to saskatoon / regina soontime with mother to visit brother. i stopped worrying. letting go so god can deal with it. chicago nd tatty soon ? need money for that, applying for credit card also. maddd exciiiteeedd !! baahaha ♥

hooolla ,
xO.r