my loves gunna last just as long as my high .

i think the phrase, why are you mad ? is the worst thing you can say to someone who is, in fact mad at you. um, for starters .. i did you a favour and took your shift when i didnt want to, because you needed to study. the only reason why i took it was cuz you offered me a ride there and back and, again .. for you to study. not sleep or do whatever you did that night. since my aunt was at my house and offered to drive me there .. again, doing you a favour. you only now, needed to pick me up. so im at work, and hours before my shift ends i decide to call you and remind you. no answer. i text. no answer. i leave a voicemail. no call back. i had no change, and our work ATM was down so not only did i have to take the bus but i had to run place to place looking for a place who does cashback. what type of bullshit is that ? at least answer my call and let me know so i can get my shit together. anyways i woulda gotten over it easily, if i wouldnt have gotten a text the next morning from you saying, hey sorry bout last night i fell asleep, what you doing today ? like uhh, not talking to you. followed by a text saying, why are you so mad ? hdgjhfgjkSDfg. that text put me in a bad place. i just hate unreliable people, especially when i thought she was one of, or even my most reliable friend. even more than that, i hate people who dont recognize their mistakes, man up and apologize. this situation coulda been avoided with just the slightest bit of effort. honestly when your younger, you have so much friends.. only later in life you realize whos really there. and at my age, i have no time for unreliable people. cant wait to get out of this city. foreaaaaaaaaal. ive been in this city for too damn long. this situation is just a logical vent for me. i cant wait for time to pass so my feelings for him will faade. anyways. day 26's new album 'forever in a day' is coming out right before my birthday. i want it, i want it, i want it.

xO.r

baggage claim

so friday at 4 i get a call from the paramedics sayin my moms been in a car accident, scared the shit outta me til i saw her at tha health science hospital and she was completely fine, thank god. only has some muscles pain which is extremely unbelievable if you saw the car. completely wrecked . autopac called and wrote it off. we were prayin to get at least 5 g`z for it but they called givin us 7. ahah but our ghetto asses are pushin for 8 . lol never satisfied. speakin on never satisfied, im still working two jobs, worked at claires and perkins yesterday but just workin at claires today. paaydays on fridaay wooooo baby !! im still looking for that perfect leather jacket. found 2 new styles at dynamite and le chateau but im still loooooooking for one similar to jennifer hudsons in the music video spotlight lol . GOTTA SIGN ON FOR UOFM SUMMER SESSIONS ! seriously i need to get this shit done. anyways i work soon so imma watch some good ol` dr.phil. lots of loove .

xO.r