om nom nommmm, its like i cant stop eating! the more i think about loosing weight the more i eat! ahaha wowwwwww, hectic wknd tho. rahel's boyfriend, aaron came through so obviously we got liquored all wknd n attempted to have a good time. thursday, mystique. friday, dylans. saturday, beach & republic. i also started winnserv yesterday, its so legit.. we watched a bit of happy feet, had a dance off to elvis, coloured, etc. the only thing i have to get accustomed to is the assistance with the bathroom. :/. im even going to ask if i can go to an independent living home, so i don't have to do anything involving.... that.

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ayyyyoooOOOO (r.kelly voice) wsp, it is now sept.13 2010, and i haven't told u shit about shit. hmhmhm, so last wknd, my famjam and i went to the states, did some shopping yadda yadda, albertville yaddaaa yadda, n i started school, yaddaa yaaadda, anyways so im currently registered, for academic writing, economics, and religion. i think im going to focus on those 3 classes and work on getting my gpa up. also, the countdown is 3 days till yob comes home :):):):):)! im so excited, these 3 days are going to feel like years. only thing that worries me is that he hasnt called all week, which is unlike him so i pray to God nothing happened. my mom thinks he is coming out on the 17th, so were going to surprise her a day earlier. only person i told, and that is coming with is aunt biya, i just hope by her coming with me to the airport it doesn't mean tsion, amen, bekalu, gerum, and alish come with aswell. whaaaaat else, do i need to tell u......... hm. OH! yetnayet and rahel left last week to the pas. its actually shocking how lonely i feel without them here, but then again, maybe this is a good thing so i can focus even more on my school, as my distractions will be limited. anyways, lots of love,

rgebremichael.

stand back - tc ft. brandy

been staring at the wall

couldn't stop i started drawing

a million pictures of hearts, till i ran out of room

and ill pay for the damage, re-paint it myself

it'll just take a second, to look hard at my mess

cuz its more than it seems, baby

came from somewhere deep in my heart

its bigger than that, you'll see it too

if you stand back

sometimes to see it, you gotta stand back

you'll see much better.

grooms n shrooms.

so much for that 'healthier me' post. lol i haven't been following it, even the slightest. in fact, i've been indulging! w.e , wait no .. not w.e! im going to the beach on saturday! wahhhhh :( , no eating till then! anyways, i went to my first folklorama, and it sucked. good thing i got in for free!! oh n yesterday, rahel's bf, aaron came into town so you know this wknd is gunna be busszzzay. thursday - saturday, binge drinking. sounds good to me. on a bad note, amber had a miscarriage, she's in so much pain, it physically pains me. she would have been a great mother, and when the time comes she will be. lisa on the other hand, has some major issues going on in her personal life, according to her sister, who is genuinely concerned for her. apparently, her sister thinks she purposely became pregnant to possibly keep justin. her and justin are not together, nor is he being supportive about her keeping the baby. i just pray that this does not affect her school. wow, when i look at other people's lives, i am so thankful to God for everything he has done for me. anyways, we're all pre-gaming at my crib saturday after the beach, and so im making jello shots! never done it before, but saw some youtube videos, so how hard could it be? black martha stewart nigggga. hahahaaa, anyways its 12:30 and i kinda just woke up, which is pretty early considering i went to bed at like 4 am. i stayed up talking to devon on skype and thabeid on bf for like 3 hours. OMG, AND, i got that winnserv job today! God is srsly way to good to me! it sounds like an amazing job, especially students. too bad me and my mom haven't been talking for a week, so my loan is co-sign-less in regards to my car. but again, God is good, and he will bless me with a vehicle, the right vehicle, when the time is right. lots of love <3

rgebremichael.

a new, healthier, me (:

few things i need do, to get myself on the path to a brand new me ! (imafag)

- cut red meat out of my diet
- do not eat after 8
- one meal consists of a salad
- incorporate fruit into my diet, daily
- run at least 3x a week
- drink only water and milk (got milk?)
- NO SECONDS (wehhh)

to be continued ..

much love,
fat rachel

fertile friends.

r.i.p

to the girl i used to be ,

her days are over, baby shes over

i decided to give you all of me

baby come closer, im ready for you

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silver 06 acura rsx type s, be mine please ? preeeetty please ! leather interior, sunroof, 2 door, 4 seating perfection. and only 29,000 kilometres! done deals. its fate! come to mama!! k, anyways. so because i need this car, i've been out only a few times since i' ve come home which, mind you, has only been a week ago? BUT STILLL, i usually go out every night. progress. and the fact that mother dearest and i, are not speaking as of right now, and i really need her to co-sign my loan, aka im trying to get good with her by being home! its kinda working............ (: tomorrow, however, i am double booked. dinner with amber n lisa, then chilling with the bestfriend ! OMG, I DID NOT TELL YOU, DID I! LISA ANN HALL AND AMBER DEANNE RAMSAY, BOTH APART OF MY TOP 6, ARE PREGOOOOOO . justin's the father of lisa

s baby, (like they needed anything to keep them together) and danny is amber's baby daddy.he's new, haven't met him yet since i was away for a month, but he seems like such a nice guy from what i've heard... keyword: heard. anyways, cant wait till i get my car, and start school. i will literally fall off the face of the earth and not go out until spring break/birthdays. lots of luuuurve. <3

rgebremichael.

thirtynine

39 DAYS

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'til i get my brother back (:

constant

seems like im constantly looking for something thats not there

constantly wanting it, thinking its only fair

why cant i have what she has, or do what he's doing

seems like short straws, is what im constantly pulling

telling myself it can only get better,

is only setting me up for another heartbreak letter.

its time i cut myself from the high hopes i cling to

showing you the real me, and all that it brings you

you say i'm all you need, and that you wont let go

that love is what you feel, and with me is all you know

- rachel deborah gebremichael

cuz if they ask me about it, i wont lie.

what if i kissed you right now
how would we explain it
trying to imagine how it might sound
if i just yell it out

what if i kissed you right now
would it bring us any closer
take the weight off of our shoulders
take me, im yours.
and i don't really care who knows it
can we afford,
to cut that open with all these emotions

if we were a secret
how long could you keep it
keep it to yourself
don't tell nobody else
and you'll just be mine.

tell me, i don't mind.
cuz if they ask me about it, i wont lie.

- aubrey drake graham

recap pt.2

remember that puppy i was getting november 1st? the cocker spaniel x yorkshire terrier male puppy ... i got his sister! i srsly just fell inlove with the girl, and its been smooth sailing since. she's amazing, and seems to get cuter n cuter every single day. like srsly, save some cuteness for the rest of the world! i named her oj, as in oreo junior (r.i.p baby). im so excited for my brother to come out n fall in love with her, (he says, nothing could come close to oreo), and while thats true .. oj comes pretty darn close! the month that i just spent away from her killed me. i missed her so much, significantly more than everyone else. anyways. 41 days until my brother comes home. wow hey. after like basically 5 years of him in and out of jail. hes here to stay. and honestly, it pisses me the fuck off when people are like, "well how long before he goes back in" .. um, how bout shutting the fuck up. yea? k thanks! annnnnndddd, guess what i did. showed up unannounced at elsa gebremichael (aka, my sisters) show at the lo pub. literally saw the event on facebook, grabbed yeti n debbie, a bottle, and showed up. i stood by the door, hyperventilating, because i was too nervous to go in, especially when i saw one of her bandmates! so, i took a walk for some fresh air, and waited till they were on stage to go in. when she was done, i lost all confidence n literally wanted to crawl out of there. in the moment, i regretted going, and just wanted to curl up in a ball and disappear. then when i thought, she was just going to walk by, she jolted to a stop turned and hugged me. talk about out of body experience, i was in shock. elsa, yeti, debbie, her bandmates and i, went out for a smoke when she asked to talk to me around the corner. ended up out there for like 2 hrs, and just spilt out all my feelings about her, our father, ben, and just the resentment i developed for the name 'gebremichael'. anyways we said goodbye, and i left with the mindset, if i never see or speak to her again, i'll be fine because for 2 hours, i had a sister and thats more than i'd ever thought i'd have. until MONDAY when i get a facebook msg with the header "HI SISTER!" loll ....... she basically said she had thought a lot about me since we talked, and she was coming through to winnipeg again soon and wanted to see me, blah blaah blah. :) how good is God! hahaha OMG so im writing this and listening to "Drake - I'm Ready For You" and just tuned in for a second and heard the line "mental pictures, no cameras please" lol i was taking mental pictures of thabeid in edmonton. loll funnnnnny. anyways k im out. lots of love <3.

rgebremichael .

recap pt.1

oh my. i don't even know where to fucking start. its been about a year since i've told you anything .. first let me apologize, school got me on lockdown (not so much an excuse, but a reason). so, tying some loose ends, devon's chapter in my story is over. thank god. in may he went to new zealand / australia for 6 weeks, and it was just not the same. our whole relationship was so messed up. like a constant game, and honestly, im tired of plotting and strategizing every little thing. so im done. thennnn .... (get this), i went on the road with the ex again w/ yetnayet, rahel, and rebecca. LOL, omg i know! i vowed never to do it again. but honestly, claire's was getting on my nerves (i quit) and needed money. but mostly, it was because devon came back to town, and i wanted to leave. give me some time to forget about him a bit more. and it worked! ... devon who? lol jkkk. he helped me grow a lot as a person, and put everything i thought i knew about relationships, in perspective. turns out, i don't know as much i thought. SURPISE! soooo, i worked slushy again. felt so weird to be sitting in the same fucking stand with SHEENA! lol only thing missing was johann. rahel, yeti, and rebecca all started off working at corndog. there is not enough time in the day to tell you all the stories about this month long venture, which is why we made video blogs!! they're not that consistent but s`allgood. the biggest thing i took out of this trip was the bond i made with rahel. when yeti n rebecca quit to work for someone else in the beginning of the trip, all we had was eachother. and honestly i wouldn't change it for anything. after a month with one person, in most cases, you cant wait to get away from them, but i miss her. rebecca has disappointed me so much on this trip, and i sincerely regret meeting and being around biniam. i would do anything to take back the way this trip made me view rebecca, a horrible, heartless, weak, selfish, manipulative, ugly person. her and biniam deserve eachother. congratulations. i wish them the best life, far, far, faarrr away from me. please n thank you. no wonder zanthea, dominique, and everyone else did not like her from the start. rahel, yeti, and i, were so blinded for the love we had for her. nonetheless, calgary was fun. spent almost the entire time there intoxicated. went to whiskey, mansion, vinyl, hifi, jacks, back alley, etc. made some good and bad links. for instance, the russian mafia (negative), to the bartender at mansion, jordan. (positive :P) i spent the whole time working in calgary doing everything in my power not to run into jordan at the stampede. worst thing is, he loves the stampede! lol running into jordan in my slushy stand with my efffffin uniform = NOT a good look ! OH AND GET THIS, fitzroy and I squashed our beef. were straight chillin n blazing like old times...makes it a whole lot easier on yeti, n honestly im too old for this petty shit. we both grew up, and can laugh about it now. (who wouldaaa thought!) anyways, so i spent like 12 hrs a day in a fucking slushy stand, doing manual labour.... kinda, and met a lot of nice people who im going to miss! for instance, lorens, dominique, ella, arthur, thabeid, etc. out of the bunch, ill prolly miss thabeid the most and honestly, developed a little crush on him, which is weird cuz hes not my type at all. but nonethelessssssss, it is good to be home. perks include, me not having to wear sandals in the shower, not having to inspect my body every time i wake up, not having to set my alarm at 5 am to take a shower, not having to brush my teeth out of a water bottle, not having to pee in a port-o-potty, not having mini donuts and coffee for breakfast, not having to live out of a suitcase, not having to live in a 4 by 5 foot bunk (which im sure is a safety hazard), not having to tell people to come pick you and the directions ending off as "its right behind the polar express!". in conclusion, its good to be home with familiar things. lots of love <3

rgebremichael.