recap pt.1

oh my. i don't even know where to fucking start. its been about a year since i've told you anything .. first let me apologize, school got me on lockdown (not so much an excuse, but a reason). so, tying some loose ends, devon's chapter in my story is over. thank god. in may he went to new zealand / australia for 6 weeks, and it was just not the same. our whole relationship was so messed up. like a constant game, and honestly, im tired of plotting and strategizing every little thing. so im done. thennnn .... (get this), i went on the road with the ex again w/ yetnayet, rahel, and rebecca. LOL, omg i know! i vowed never to do it again. but honestly, claire's was getting on my nerves (i quit) and needed money. but mostly, it was because devon came back to town, and i wanted to leave. give me some time to forget about him a bit more. and it worked! ... devon who? lol jkkk. he helped me grow a lot as a person, and put everything i thought i knew about relationships, in perspective. turns out, i don't know as much i thought. SURPISE! soooo, i worked slushy again. felt so weird to be sitting in the same fucking stand with SHEENA! lol only thing missing was johann. rahel, yeti, and rebecca all started off working at corndog. there is not enough time in the day to tell you all the stories about this month long venture, which is why we made video blogs!! they're not that consistent but s`allgood. the biggest thing i took out of this trip was the bond i made with rahel. when yeti n rebecca quit to work for someone else in the beginning of the trip, all we had was eachother. and honestly i wouldn't change it for anything. after a month with one person, in most cases, you cant wait to get away from them, but i miss her. rebecca has disappointed me so much on this trip, and i sincerely regret meeting and being around biniam. i would do anything to take back the way this trip made me view rebecca, a horrible, heartless, weak, selfish, manipulative, ugly person. her and biniam deserve eachother. congratulations. i wish them the best life, far, far, faarrr away from me. please n thank you. no wonder zanthea, dominique, and everyone else did not like her from the start. rahel, yeti, and i, were so blinded for the love we had for her. nonetheless, calgary was fun. spent almost the entire time there intoxicated. went to whiskey, mansion, vinyl, hifi, jacks, back alley, etc. made some good and bad links. for instance, the russian mafia (negative), to the bartender at mansion, jordan. (positive :P) i spent the whole time working in calgary doing everything in my power not to run into jordan at the stampede. worst thing is, he loves the stampede! lol running into jordan in my slushy stand with my efffffin uniform = NOT a good look ! OH AND GET THIS, fitzroy and I squashed our beef. were straight chillin n blazing like old times...makes it a whole lot easier on yeti, n honestly im too old for this petty shit. we both grew up, and can laugh about it now. (who wouldaaa thought!) anyways, so i spent like 12 hrs a day in a fucking slushy stand, doing manual labour.... kinda, and met a lot of nice people who im going to miss! for instance, lorens, dominique, ella, arthur, thabeid, etc. out of the bunch, ill prolly miss thabeid the most and honestly, developed a little crush on him, which is weird cuz hes not my type at all. but nonethelessssssss, it is good to be home. perks include, me not having to wear sandals in the shower, not having to inspect my body every time i wake up, not having to set my alarm at 5 am to take a shower, not having to brush my teeth out of a water bottle, not having to pee in a port-o-potty, not having mini donuts and coffee for breakfast, not having to live out of a suitcase, not having to live in a 4 by 5 foot bunk (which im sure is a safety hazard), not having to tell people to come pick you and the directions ending off as "its right behind the polar express!". in conclusion, its good to be home with familiar things. lots of love <3

rgebremichael.