and the countdown begins ..

[ cntdwn : 22 days ]

this christmas is probably going to be the toughest christmas yet , which is weird cuz this is the only christmas where i could afford to buy everyone i love, good gifts. but the one thing thats missing is worse than ever. contemplated with mother to even put the tree up, but then again we have a christmas dinner for the whole family on tha 27th so it'll draw attention. i miss how things were, no matter how negative or positive the experience was, before it took over your life. but i know, one day we will have a christmas dinner, with every single person in our family there, and we could look upon the other christmas` and it'll be nothing but a mere memory of the past. its also fustrating how, the only person i really liked at my work is putting her 2 weeks in today and on top of that its the christmas season and now we have to train a new person ? wow are the managers going to be pissed. why is it every other third key, hates claire's and cant wait til they "get out", yet i love it. being surrounded by nice ass accessaries rather than deep friers, corndogs, and slushy cups seems like a bonus to me. not like i would know or anything, lol. so anyways i also went to church on sunday, i forgot how much better i feel after a good sermon. sundays was about your vision, your outlook on life and how it greatly effects your life. i wish one day i can be as devoted and faithful like my family. speaking of family? how strong is your maternal bond as sisters? ponder on that til next time, kids.

hooollAHh,
xO.r