future love.

do you ever think about your wedding day? whether, itll be indoors or outside? if you'll make it intimate or a big celebration? or, if you'll have 3,4, or 5 bridemaids? i do. all the time. i wonder what ill be doing 11pm, the night before my wedding. or what colours ill incorporate in the most important day of my life. more importantly, i wonder about the groom. who will i spend the rest of my life with? share my mind, body, and soul.. solely with? who will be the man i learn to cook for, clean, and bare children for? what is he doing right now? lol since its 11pm on a saturday night, is he out getting drunk, at a club? will he hook up with a girl tonight or is he at home, just chillin? do i know him already? oh lord, HAHA i hope not! see, i think about these things all the time, because im saving so much for him, i just pray to God he's worth it!! for god sakes im going to spend the rest of my life with him! ahhhhhh, sjkfdhsdjkfhksdjfh im so proud of myself and the fact that im able to give him the most important thing to me and only to him .. and the fact that i worked so hard to keep it although temption was lurking near many MANY times.. i can only pray that God will provide me with the strength to hold on to it til i meet that special guy. to say that ive only been with my husband, my bestfriend, and the guy ill spend the rest of my life with, is truly a blessing.