my loves gunna last just as long as my high .

i think the phrase, why are you mad ? is the worst thing you can say to someone who is, in fact mad at you. um, for starters .. i did you a favour and took your shift when i didnt want to, because you needed to study. the only reason why i took it was cuz you offered me a ride there and back and, again .. for you to study. not sleep or do whatever you did that night. since my aunt was at my house and offered to drive me there .. again, doing you a favour. you only now, needed to pick me up. so im at work, and hours before my shift ends i decide to call you and remind you. no answer. i text. no answer. i leave a voicemail. no call back. i had no change, and our work ATM was down so not only did i have to take the bus but i had to run place to place looking for a place who does cashback. what type of bullshit is that ? at least answer my call and let me know so i can get my shit together. anyways i woulda gotten over it easily, if i wouldnt have gotten a text the next morning from you saying, hey sorry bout last night i fell asleep, what you doing today ? like uhh, not talking to you. followed by a text saying, why are you so mad ? hdgjhfgjkSDfg. that text put me in a bad place. i just hate unreliable people, especially when i thought she was one of, or even my most reliable friend. even more than that, i hate people who dont recognize their mistakes, man up and apologize. this situation coulda been avoided with just the slightest bit of effort. honestly when your younger, you have so much friends.. only later in life you realize whos really there. and at my age, i have no time for unreliable people. cant wait to get out of this city. foreaaaaaaaaal. ive been in this city for too damn long. this situation is just a logical vent for me. i cant wait for time to pass so my feelings for him will faade. anyways. day 26's new album 'forever in a day' is coming out right before my birthday. i want it, i want it, i want it.

xO.r

baggage claim

so friday at 4 i get a call from the paramedics sayin my moms been in a car accident, scared the shit outta me til i saw her at tha health science hospital and she was completely fine, thank god. only has some muscles pain which is extremely unbelievable if you saw the car. completely wrecked . autopac called and wrote it off. we were prayin to get at least 5 g`z for it but they called givin us 7. ahah but our ghetto asses are pushin for 8 . lol never satisfied. speakin on never satisfied, im still working two jobs, worked at claires and perkins yesterday but just workin at claires today. paaydays on fridaay wooooo baby !! im still looking for that perfect leather jacket. found 2 new styles at dynamite and le chateau but im still loooooooking for one similar to jennifer hudsons in the music video spotlight lol . GOTTA SIGN ON FOR UOFM SUMMER SESSIONS ! seriously i need to get this shit done. anyways i work soon so imma watch some good ol` dr.phil. lots of loove .

xO.r

shes just stuck in houstatlantavegas .

im not scared of lions, nd tigers, nd bears

but im scared of lovin yu

im not scared to perform at a sold out affair

but im scared of lovin yu

am i the only one who thinks its an impossible task?

why it dont last? is that too much to ask?

why do we love, love

when love seems to hate us ?

sorry if i sound so filled with gloom

you said you care i know you do

but this is from experience

and my conclusion only makes sense

just cuz i like you and you like me

it doesnt mean that we're meant to be

i can climb mountains, swim cross the seas

but the most frightening thing is you and me

im not scared of lions, nd tigers, nd bears
but im scared of lovin yu
im not scared to perform at a sold out affair
but im scared of lovin yu

am i the only one who thinks its an impossible task?
why it dont last? is that too much to ask?
why do we love, love
when love seems to hate us ?

most circumstances, i know my fate

but in this love thing, i dont get the game

why does it feel like those who give in

they only wind up losing a friend ?

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worked 4hrs at claires then 7hrs at perkins yesterday then woke up this morning and did the perkins thing again for 5hrs nd workin at claires tomorroow. feels good when yu think bout tha money .. but daamn , this shits exhausting. seems like my life is slowly turnin into an all work no play typa life. anywaaays , hopefully im goin out tonight wid grant nd gab , i need some chill time. cant wait for my birthday & the summer .. think i might hit the road wid the ex again . make some major flow and leave this god forsaken city. anyways lots of love <3

hooolla ,
xO.r

so far gone.

its funny when you come in first, but you hope that you last - yu just hope that it last.

so im obessed with this mixtape. i cant even function. when i hear it i lose control. complete control. i dont purchase cds, i burn but i cannot wait to wake up tomorrow and rape this city looking for it. its like audibal crack. ahaha just when i want to start cutting down on the secular music, drake gotta drop this banger. so what new ? working everyday. literally, my first day off in like 2 weeks is tomorrow. ive been sitting here foreverr , in this fuckin chair cuz i cant bring myself to leave this fucking mixtape. LOL anyways, went to church this morning wid mom. very refreshing. bought my bro a bunch of books, cd, etc. from hulls and sent it today. never thought id say this but i wish i was more like him. lol anyways so i just realized ive been listenin to this goddamn mixtape for 3 hours. and i feel like i havent even scratched the surface. seriously the best modern mixtape ive heard. point blank period. but what else can i expect from drake. fucking insane. lol anyways on a totally different note, my basement just started getting built. im so excited for my new room and i pretty much have everything picked out. shits gonna be tight. purple & black is gon be my theme. only concern is it might be too dark. anyways imma get up, cuz this shits unhealthy. try to turn this shit off. now i just cant wait for, thank me later.. what the fuck are they feeding this kid. hes addicting.

hoolla ,
xO.r

welcome to my coorner <3

weeeent shopping ! my favorite thing to do ever, so automatically my day started off good. got like 5 shirts, most of them for work but a couple juuust cause. finally got my pretty purple purse and a a new guess waallet ! jeezus , that was loong overdue. my purse don already been rippin`. spent so much time at tha mall nd got this craaaazy heart burn. like dang, i thought i was going to die and i didnt eat anything, like cereal for breakfast.. i dunno if it was my throat problem thingy or not.

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im on tha killa shit .

so i went to pick up my mom from my aunts/uncles, i could tell she didnt want to go out to dinner but instead eat injera wid tha fam, so w/e that was iight wid me and instead i took my little cousins abby nd zeru out for wings , had wid those little guys. i brought my moms gift in bekas house hid it in my jacket and told her i had a card for her. with the card alone she was crying and when i whipped out tha gift she was so surprised. she opend it and started screaming. it was all worth it. i went to my aunts yesterday too and watched role models, and then went to lisas and watched 7 pounds again. i had my interview on tuesday, it went sooo well, the general manager seems so cool. orientation is tonight at 7oclock. LOL and ME AND LISA got hired ahah, but were putting our friendship on tha low for a bit aha. making 9.50 an hour to start which is reaaal good. went to cd plus and ordered songs for the storm vol.1 and the re-birth of kirk franklin for my broo . caant wait til he gets out , missing him like crazy. anyways gotta clean my room ..

hoolla
xO.r

go mama, its yr birthday, we gon sip bicardi like its yr birthday [8]

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Happy Birthday Mom !

iLOVELOVELOVE yu ,

so, as you can tell its my mothers 46th birthday . got her a digital camera & goin out to dinner . should be chill . spent the weekend pretty much at my aunty nd uncle's house due to the passin of my aunt beka's brother. pro's : got to spend alot of time wid my family. got to remember today's my moms day. nothing else has my attention aka nothing else matters. i wont even take my cell out with me, if thats what it takes to get you off my mind. but im out, gotta run some errands. lots of love ♥

p.s. YAY STEEEELERS ! better luck next time, cardinals. :P

hooolla,

xO.r