sorry excuse for a post

sorry i havent wrote here for a while, everythings been kinda goin at a fast pace. i dont even know where to start and game 3 of lakers nd orlando series is on right now. so i dont have time to write anything buuut uhh , here are tha topics that i need to catch you up on maybe tomorrow or the day after..

- baby news
- basement updates
- claires position
- sisters turn around, or lack thereof
- uhh see im forgetting already ..

let me get at you laterr .

xO.r

p.s. sorry for the shitty post =/ .. just needed to put SOMETHING down ahah . til next time <3

villian love,

and sometimes it like ..
your only "the one" cuz your the only one here
convieniently in love, cuz your the only one near
my greatest fear? is that it doesnt get any better,
like im searching for the address to an anonymous letter
can i be the one for some, who is done being young ?
is there such a thing, as that scene is my dreams ?
when hes the king and im the queen..
i do the dishes, he mowes the lawn, he goes to work and i stay at home
old fashion love, you know ?
and sometimes i think, its not meant to be cuz i feel complete .. when its just me

and so it seems the man in my dreams, is still in love,
feels like im stealing love, like a villian love,
cuz hes real in love, and i dont know the feeling
i just wish it was me, i miss being me ..

i miss being me, Ms.Always be freee !
who laughed til it hurt, and always found peace
i miss my smile, that sparkle in my eye
my voice that said "it'll be alright" when i cried
i miss being free, Ms.Always be ME, has died

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remember the first day i saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me, then you said to me
i was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies, although we tried to hide it
and we both had a beautiful night

remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we comprimised
and we havent argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause i felt the same way too

i know that he loves me cuz he told me so
i know that he loves me cuz his feelings show
when he stares as me, you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
i know that he loves me cuz its obvious
i know that he loves me cuz its me he trusts
and hes missing me, if hes not kissing me

... and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

hold me down & be my gravity .

HYPOTHETICALLY
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uofmanitoba/winnipeg:
600 per course (roughly) x 4 (amount of courses) = 2400 per semester.
2400 x 2 semesters = roughly 5000 an academic year w/ books.

total = $5ooo

5000 - 5ooo = $O

uofregina:
600 per course (roughly) x 4 (amount of courses) = 24oo
2400 x 2 semesters = roughly 5ooo an academic year w/ books.
+
residency rate for 2 bedroom apartment : 4 installments x $644 = 2576
2576 x 2 semesters = 5152

total = 5152 + 5ooo = 10152

10152 - 5ooo (my scholarship fund) = $5152

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realistically, this looks impossible but with my moms $5000 scholarship fund she set out for me it cuts the cost in half.. i didnt realize that it was doubled. but seriously i need to get out of this fucking city and all these fucking people. i could get a serving job out there and live off tips and only work like 2 or 3 times a week. but then theres food costs, bus pass, daily neccessaties, and what not. shit adds up. i cant do this alone.

xO.r

out of my element.

i told myself that i would make some changes

but the more i change,

theres on thing that remains the same

i cant seem to shake ya

you seem to really have a hold on me

and everytime that we break up

we turn around and make up

this cant go on now

i gotta move on now

its not the fact that i dont love you no more

but i gotta break this bad habit

cant take this bad habit no more

works not doin to well, homes kinda stressful aswell, and on top of that im goin thru withdrawal. its friday night and im on the computer .. need i say more ? i misssss your face .

xO.r

wish i can keeep yu much longer .

blaaaaaahh , so ummm .. friday night i went to hifiiii saw like all the cooks from perkins .. which was kinda awkward . speaking of awkward .. i really dont appreciate bitches calling my phone trying to tell me what i saw. like im sorry bitch, i know what i saw and i dont value the opinions of those i dont respect. that goes for her and that punk ass nigga. anyways, got so fuckin blixxed on sunday in gc mall parking lot. lol just a major seshh. felt so goood, to get all tha bullshit off my mind for once. seems like even after friday, thats all i can ever think of. youd think itd make it easier.. but no. anyways, workin at claires for half an hour so that jean can have a break. then off to perkins for 5pm. kiomi left to newyoork this morning and i slept thru it .. felt so bad but i was on tha phone all night and was so exhausted. anyways imma get ready for work. lots of love <3

hooolla,
xO.r

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FCK YU

thank God, its done.