hold me down & be my gravity .

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uofmanitoba/winnipeg:
600 per course (roughly) x 4 (amount of courses) = 2400 per semester.
2400 x 2 semesters = roughly 5000 an academic year w/ books.

total = $5ooo

5000 - 5ooo = $O

uofregina:
600 per course (roughly) x 4 (amount of courses) = 24oo
2400 x 2 semesters = roughly 5ooo an academic year w/ books.
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residency rate for 2 bedroom apartment : 4 installments x $644 = 2576
2576 x 2 semesters = 5152

total = 5152 + 5ooo = 10152

10152 - 5ooo (my scholarship fund) = $5152

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realistically, this looks impossible but with my moms $5000 scholarship fund she set out for me it cuts the cost in half.. i didnt realize that it was doubled. but seriously i need to get out of this fucking city and all these fucking people. i could get a serving job out there and live off tips and only work like 2 or 3 times a week. but then theres food costs, bus pass, daily neccessaties, and what not. shit adds up. i cant do this alone.

xO.r

out of my element.

i told myself that i would make some changes

but the more i change,

theres on thing that remains the same

i cant seem to shake ya

you seem to really have a hold on me

and everytime that we break up

we turn around and make up

this cant go on now

i gotta move on now

its not the fact that i dont love you no more

but i gotta break this bad habit

cant take this bad habit no more

works not doin to well, homes kinda stressful aswell, and on top of that im goin thru withdrawal. its friday night and im on the computer .. need i say more ? i misssss your face .

xO.r

wish i can keeep yu much longer .

blaaaaaahh , so ummm .. friday night i went to hifiiii saw like all the cooks from perkins .. which was kinda awkward . speaking of awkward .. i really dont appreciate bitches calling my phone trying to tell me what i saw. like im sorry bitch, i know what i saw and i dont value the opinions of those i dont respect. that goes for her and that punk ass nigga. anyways, got so fuckin blixxed on sunday in gc mall parking lot. lol just a major seshh. felt so goood, to get all tha bullshit off my mind for once. seems like even after friday, thats all i can ever think of. youd think itd make it easier.. but no. anyways, workin at claires for half an hour so that jean can have a break. then off to perkins for 5pm. kiomi left to newyoork this morning and i slept thru it .. felt so bad but i was on tha phone all night and was so exhausted. anyways imma get ready for work. lots of love <3

hooolla,
xO.r

asdfghjkl;'

FCK YU

thank God, its done.

i<3OSBOURNEVILLAGE

im feeling like the world is leaning on me

so am i worth it, baby come on after me

but if its meant to be, then we'll wait and see

if theres a possibility, possibility that tomorrow..

woaah , fucked up night. it started up with a simple dinner at boston pizza, then ended up shot gunnin beers in a back alley in osbourne village with uofw students i didnt know. my hair was straight and it was raining, and get this .. i HAD NO HOOD ! lol but for some odd reason my hair didnt blow up. i was so surprised it was holding up under the pressure. lol but thats not the fucked up part. we stood shotgunnin beers for like almost 2 hours behind the fuuckin cold beer store in the village with crazy people EVERYWHERE. aha me nd jena were extremely paranoid and i was huurtin for a joint but the people we were wid were straight up white boys, nd yu knoow white boys love their alcoohol. anyways it ended off with us going to the toad, and then me getting pulllllled overrr !! im not getting into that tho for obvious reasons. but anyways friday, we went to mybar .. first time ever there. it was okaaay =/ . so much BLASTED white people, like gabby warned me but daaaang .. im pretty sure the only black people were me, rj, raymond, nicole, and roseanne. seriously .. the rest were white. so yee we got pretty wasted .. had my first mac wrap ( nd yes, its all its cracked up to be <3

p.s. why is it, im just starting to miss him now. i mean, realllly miss him . ):

hoolla,

xO.r

double-fisted.

i wanna say come over

but i told you that its over

i cant just let you leave

im caught up in this lovers thing

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gone to mybar. gone to get sloshed. gone to clear my head.

hoolla,

xO.r

colours of the rainbow - dj skeptyk

heller . whats new ? hmm , i got tha email i was waiting for. made me sad and happy at the same time. safe to say i was emotionally unstable. more sad news is jena quit claires ! i honestly didnt see this coming .. i thought she was a lifer but she got another, better job at jim gauthier's car dealership which is a pretty dope job which also means .. theres an assistant managing spot that was given to kerri !! which is like awesome cuz kerris sucha a highlyfe and chillin. even more chilliiinn then jena, nd thats pretty motherfuckin chillin. on a side note : whats with every guys name being chris ? seriously, 20yrs ago was there no other name ? like i officially hate the name chris. lol not only is sexy dishwashers name chris, but this guy who i just met's name is also chris, nd dont get me started on tha past chris's .. the names actually becoming a bit of a turn off. no more chris` in my life, ok God ?

p.s. i love my brother !

hoolla,
xO.r